....So... How is it suddenly ONLY 109 DAYS until Graduation???
Honestly, it was probably good that we were forced emotionally to stop counting in the months of December/January. As many of you know, these were horrible months in our household and I became too frozen to continue this blog. However, as in any period of high stress, life eventually becomes calmer. My mantra through it all was, 2013 could be "our year"...over & over till I began to believe it!
And actually, it HAS.. Keith got a job! The school stuff drastically improved. Katrina received acceptance to Drew University--which is another awesome fit for her learning style. And we started to see some shape to our next year.
I sat here yesterday, knowing I wanted to finish this blog post before the news comes from Sara Lawrence, Katrina's #1 choice for college... which could literally be any moment now. I wanted to capture that moment right before finding out big , life altering news that will come one way or the other. I described it to another theater mom today as the moment when you have auditioned for several parts at once, knowing which one you are most suited for and desire, yet the decision is in someone else's control. But, this time the result of this seeming "random " ( But NOT) decision changes the course of your world, not for a few months.. but for 4 years. That slight stretch of being in limbo but having to go about your day to day actions, while all the while gearing up in your head for a big change is jarring. This for even the most patient of souls which we are not. One would think , after over 45 shows- YES's and countless more NO audtions .. we would have this acceptance/rejection thing down to a science, but it is actually quite the contrary. I am always proud of how my daughter puts herself out there, shows her vulnerability and bravely seizes these opportunities. Despite, today's words of wisdom from many to not put "all our eggs in one basket". I am going to have to sit back today and breathe deep,confident in the reasons Katrina chose to go Early Decision and "trust the process" .
Driving Katrina to school has seemed a privilege this week, one that Keith and I have secretly jockeyed for lately. She laughs @ me and catches my tearful eye as we head up into University Circle, " Mom! DON'T START.".. "OK." I lie and wait the few moments until she gets out of the car.
