So... I know it's completely normal to be shedding a few pre-grad tears in the weeks before my daughters graduation . Still, I feel a little guilty doing it... after all..it's a time to celebrate ,right? And it is, of course so amazingly surreal to be headed to the empty nest as my only child is headed off in this incredible adventure, BUT does it have to happen in the parking lot at Target? AND as I am driving down Martin Luther king Dr. after dropping her off @school? YES, there were the few expected Prom tears as I watched these diverse and wise young Montessori children who have blossomed this year with such confidence into people who will take on the world! ( and the side note of how the all looked elegant enough for the red carpet!!)...
AND the joyous ones as she went the Indians game last night with her senior class, and was shocked\appalled when the batter broke a Louisville Slugger bat ! ..Such love and pride she has for both her cities and her school and the broader world. So proud she is (as are we!) in her alternative approach to education... and her sheer determination to succeed her way...in "formal education'" or otherwise.. the journey has been triumphant... and shall continue on.... OK,teary just writing this...and smiling @ the same time!!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
30 days...The nervous Anticipation Begins...
So. Here we are. Much emotion in this final month before my only child ends her high school career. Holding back on the tears for now, and trying to focus on all the joy and what we are grateful for is honestly a struggle today. I have just lit four candles for our friends in South Dakota, he in the last days of his heroic struggle with cancer, his wife and daughters (one who will also graduate in a few short weeks)..are so much weaved into our thoughts this week.We are franticaly trying to tie up loose ends. Katrina's last IB test done. Several class projects done. My mom (who has been staying with us while recovering) is headed home for a few days to plant her garden. Keith takes his last final for his certificate in Sustainability @ Baldwin Wallace tonight. Sure signs of growth, and health and Spring!
I am trying to spend time making grad presents ,lots of them.. and planning for proms, and our church bridging ceremony, and many other celebrations.. Each small step in this process gives me a pause for reflection. ... Memories flood in and will fuel my joy and creativity...
It certainly has been and will be .. a month of tremendous joys and concerns....
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Is it "OUR Year"???
....So... How is it suddenly ONLY 109 DAYS until Graduation???
Honestly, it was probably good that we were forced emotionally to stop counting in the months of December/January. As many of you know, these were horrible months in our household and I became too frozen to continue this blog. However, as in any period of high stress, life eventually becomes calmer. My mantra through it all was, 2013 could be "our year"...over & over till I began to believe it!
And actually, it HAS.. Keith got a job! The school stuff drastically improved. Katrina received acceptance to Drew University--which is another awesome fit for her learning style. And we started to see some shape to our next year.
I sat here yesterday, knowing I wanted to finish this blog post before the news comes from Sara Lawrence, Katrina's #1 choice for college... which could literally be any moment now. I wanted to capture that moment right before finding out big , life altering news that will come one way or the other. I described it to another theater mom today as the moment when you have auditioned for several parts at once, knowing which one you are most suited for and desire, yet the decision is in someone else's control. But, this time the result of this seeming "random " ( But NOT) decision changes the course of your world, not for a few months.. but for 4 years. That slight stretch of being in limbo but having to go about your day to day actions, while all the while gearing up in your head for a big change is jarring. This for even the most patient of souls which we are not. One would think , after over 45 shows- YES's and countless more NO audtions .. we would have this acceptance/rejection thing down to a science, but it is actually quite the contrary. I am always proud of how my daughter puts herself out there, shows her vulnerability and bravely seizes these opportunities. Despite, today's words of wisdom from many to not put "all our eggs in one basket". I am going to have to sit back today and breathe deep,confident in the reasons Katrina chose to go Early Decision and "trust the process" .
Driving Katrina to school has seemed a privilege this week, one that Keith and I have secretly jockeyed for lately. She laughs @ me and catches my tearful eye as we head up into University Circle, " Mom! DON'T START.".. "OK." I lie and wait the few moments until she gets out of the car.
Honestly, it was probably good that we were forced emotionally to stop counting in the months of December/January. As many of you know, these were horrible months in our household and I became too frozen to continue this blog. However, as in any period of high stress, life eventually becomes calmer. My mantra through it all was, 2013 could be "our year"...over & over till I began to believe it!
And actually, it HAS.. Keith got a job! The school stuff drastically improved. Katrina received acceptance to Drew University--which is another awesome fit for her learning style. And we started to see some shape to our next year.
I sat here yesterday, knowing I wanted to finish this blog post before the news comes from Sara Lawrence, Katrina's #1 choice for college... which could literally be any moment now. I wanted to capture that moment right before finding out big , life altering news that will come one way or the other. I described it to another theater mom today as the moment when you have auditioned for several parts at once, knowing which one you are most suited for and desire, yet the decision is in someone else's control. But, this time the result of this seeming "random " ( But NOT) decision changes the course of your world, not for a few months.. but for 4 years. That slight stretch of being in limbo but having to go about your day to day actions, while all the while gearing up in your head for a big change is jarring. This for even the most patient of souls which we are not. One would think , after over 45 shows- YES's and countless more NO audtions .. we would have this acceptance/rejection thing down to a science, but it is actually quite the contrary. I am always proud of how my daughter puts herself out there, shows her vulnerability and bravely seizes these opportunities. Despite, today's words of wisdom from many to not put "all our eggs in one basket". I am going to have to sit back today and breathe deep,confident in the reasons Katrina chose to go Early Decision and "trust the process" .
Driving Katrina to school has seemed a privilege this week, one that Keith and I have secretly jockeyed for lately. She laughs @ me and catches my tearful eye as we head up into University Circle, " Mom! DON'T START.".. "OK." I lie and wait the few moments until she gets out of the car.
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